"Ye cannot behold
with your natural eyes,
for the present time,
the design of your God
concerning those things
which shall come
hereafter,
and the glory which
shall follow
after much
tribulation"
--Doctrine &
Covenants 58:3
"Trust in the
Lord
with all thine heart
and lean not
unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him
and He shall direct
thy paths."
--Proverbs 3:5-6
"Seek not to counsel
the Lord...
[You] know that He
counseleth
in wisdom and in
justice and in great mercy..."
--Jacob 4:9-10
it all sounds so
straightforward and easy.
just trust the Lord.
remember that Heavenly Father
knows best.
align your will with His.
God loves you and wants to
bless you.
sure, I know this. I do. I can
say from experience that all this is true. our Father really does know us
personally and He sees things we cannot. His perspective is infinitely more
expansive. He would never direct us to paths contrary to the ultimate reward we
seek. as His child, His work and His glory is to bring me back to live with
Him. He wishes me to have joy in this life.
so why would it have to be so
hard?
that's where trust comes in.
sometimes we can only see so far down the path. I love to see my steps, but how
much improved can my journey be if I let Him lead me? it is unbelievably
difficult to hand over my life. I would so much like to tell the Lord, "looky
here. this is what I like and I think it's pretty dynamite. don't you think you
can work that into your eternal scheme? I'm happy right now. promise." I
know what happy is, don't I? I can tell when I'm enjoying life. but
sometimes...there must be an alternate happiness. because I cannot always have
what I want.
it's hard. and initially I
really really don't have any desire to yield. but deep down...I know that I
can't be happy without choosing His way. He knows me better, and he can see my
whole journey: start to finish.
so I'm going to have to trust.
it might be bumpy. it might tear my heart in two pieces. but I know. I know
that He knows.
and I have to trust.
